Reality-Will it set in?

Been saying this for years and I have not been the only one. So I doubt that anyone will listen. Grandeur and idealism must stay at the forefront in order to maintain the status quo.

And it Shall be

I came across a great quote in 1 of the books that I have been reading.

Still, we never tattled on Dave.  In Baker, none of my friends tattled on anyone.  That was the code.

That is good stuff. Unfortunately, there is a line of folks to 'tattle' on me.

As the year ends

Looks like it has been a while since I have posted. Things are not looking good for people with my name. I could change it but I think that is only a short term band-aid on the problem called life. Yes that role in which I was unwittingly cast and have no creative control or residuals. The day when my show gets cancelled may be soon. I do not know if I will be glad or not. Anyway, I still make the curtain call each day like a good trooper. I am hoping to be held over in a good city one of these days but probably not.

Along the lines of things that I distinctively don't do (but have been doing them lately) I started a facebook account. I also got myself a fancy new phone along with a fancy monthly bill. I also now wear long sleeve shirts but hopefully that is just utilitarian.

Still Living

Well it seems that it may now be time to relax. Really, the time that I do not have a bunch of other stuff to do. So relaxing means that I should quickly do the things around the house that I need to do so that I can sit on the couch and catch up on reading and watching all of the shows that I recorded due to not having time to watch them.

Maybe I can squeeze in a few summer blockbusters. I did see Inception the other day. It was quite an excellent movie. It draws you in like few movies do. Of course that abnormally large screen the theater had also helps. Maybe I can even go golfing, or else officially give up the endeavor.

The Concert, a New Life

Well, I went to a concert at the House of Blues. The last concert I went to was there also. I learned some valuable lessons. I guess that I have been trying to connect to my former self. Both of these concerts involved bands that I listened to in high school. I went to many concerts in high school but not to all of the bands that I had liked.

Most recently was Hole. First off, I should have 'googled' Courtney Love, as opposed to Hole for obvious reasons. Things have changed. Live Through This, an album from Hole, is the album that I have listened to the most. (The second most is Canadian Amp by Neko Case) When I was in high school, Hole was an all girl band. You can call them punk or even alternative as was a popular term at the time. Maybe similar to (or not) Veruca Salt and Letters to Cleo, also excellent bands.

Well, I was surprised to see the differences. Actually, the first thing that I was surprised by was the people that showed to the show. I expected mostly folks such as myself, of course some a few years older that were old enough to be in the clubs that Courtney and Kurt played together in. But there was a mix of folks. Some a bit old and some young. There were some young girls there and I wonder how they got turned on to the greatness that is (or was) Hole. I expected to get chatty with a lady or two but was surprised with that denial; which was soon explained. See, the closest person to a girl that the band has is Courtney; all the other members are guys. Also, the musical style was different. No longer punk or alternative but more hard rock. The closest thing to punk was that Courtney did not want to play her own songs; at least the ones that made her famous. After the first three songs in the set, two of which were covers, she cussed the crowd for wanting to hear the old school. She of course played quite a few of these as well as some more covers and some newer songs. She purports to be quite proud of her new album. The other shocker was that Courtney now bats for the pink team. This explained a lot. She has garnered a bunch of new followers just through this admission. (also explained why I was striking out with the ladies)

Overall, it was a great show. I just wish that I was more prepared for it. Much more prepared. It seems that due to financial matters, the train schedule has been cut back. However, nobody bothered to tell me. I spent quite a while waiting for a train that was not coming.

The Life

If I could go back in time, I know where I would go. I would go back into the 70's to see The Runaways perform Saturday Nigh Special live. That is where I want to be.

Whoah, They Got It

Well, so I am not a voice alone. I am watching Saturday Night Live and I see my plight in a sketch. The Riley sketch. That describes my battle. Accept him, no matter he calls you bitch and all kind of obscenities. I somehow am wrong for wanting to be in a decent environment.

Bring What May and Call it Life

I cruised out to the lake today to take some pictures. We do not see ice on the lakes that much around here so I took the opportunity to take some pictures. It was a bit cold out but otherwise a great day. I watched the birds fly about and bask on the ice, it went quite far into the lake.

I also met a few folks while out there. I met a couple from North Dakota. We exchanged photo taking. So now I have a rare picture of myself. I also met a guy looking for homes in the area. I saw other photoing, running, and biking. As I left I saw a guy who hates the liberals but probably is not that big a fan of mother earth.

What Life May Bring

If I only had a dollar for every time a student said that I had confused them. Of course, I get paid much more than that but a few more bucks never hurt. My students really seem to confuse themselves. Somehow, that becomes my fault because I am not telling them the correct answer. But then I go to my graduate course at night and get a dose of the same. So life, at least seems to be symmetrical if not centrifugal. I just want to get to the good stuff. I hear that I am young but I feel too old to be taking $#&@ from kids half my age.

But what really would happen if they understood me? Epiphany or travesty?

Why This?!

I sometimes find it hard to comprehend that we are stuck here. Why do people hate life so much? Why would a person get up in the morning and go through steps to get ready for the day? Getting their created little people off to a useless hole in the earth and then themselves driving across a mobbed town to lavish into an overly useless hole. Slash your wrists, take some pills, or just stay home. And just why did you procreate. Maybe that is just what is wrong with this earth. The people with all of the why's abstain from creating people for the slaughter while the rest just revel in their feces. Are we that much a part of the dark one that we will punish a kid who is not provided with the proper clothing? Forgetting all the while that the Pure one looks on as we celebrate the travesty that we have made out of His Gracious gift of life.

No Way

I just found out that this 'death thing' applies to me!

I have been reading Steve Martin's biography, Born Standing Up.
A great book. It is refreshing to read a book about a seemingly iconic figure. I also identify with his comedy and feel that most people do not get my humor like people did not get his.

Of course they laughed at him anyway but laugh at me in a different way.

Unexpected Bonus

I went to the Rangers game today. It was a great game. The fans were quite lively today and in the good way. The sun was just as boisterous. I am quite red but still feel great. After the game they gave fans the opportunity to run the bases. There were mostly kids but I was not alone among the 'big kids.' It was a great experience to run the bases at Rangers ballpark.

WTF !!

Relax all, I am not going through a revolution. But I just did something that I have never done before. No, it was no accident or naive foible. I clicked on a weblink that I knew would take me to... Facebook! It may seem that I have crossed to the darkside but though I have thought about that {whatever that means} I have not.

I was planning a trip to one of my favorite movie theaters to see some digital images splashed across the screen in exchange for some of my hard-earned {no joke, really} money. When I saw that one of my favored actors had had his birthday bash at that same theater a few days earlier. So I unabashedly {for once} clicked the weblink. Nothing amazing transpired. Stuff on the screen {no I did not sneeze or expel any other bodily fluids} I saw. And the 'article' {I know that it is no such thing} was no more in depth than the link.


Wow! A thing just occurred to me. Instead of actually going to the theater {which I often do} I am blogging about it. [shudder]

The Days

It is nice to have some time off. Actually, I still have work to do but I have not gone to work in 4 days. I am contemplating not going back at all. But I most likely will go back tomorrow. I kind of like money and so do the people who constantly send me bills.

The time off that I do hopefully have coming up will be nice. I need some time to sort some things out. Maybe make some decisions and such. Or I just might chill and forget about making decisions, plans, and the like.

Quotes of Note

Here is a great excerpt from a book that I have been reading.


Everything was regulated by the bell. It gave me orders, and I automatically obeyed them. I hated it. Whenever I dreamed of a better world, I could only imagine a universe with no bells.


Night by Elie Weisel

Is This Really My Life??

The other day while I was mailing off some more of my blood earned money, I noticed something interesting. There was a crazy, homeless dude at the post office. He was just standing there at the counter and speaking. He looked disheveled yet dignified. His verbal content showed a higher level of cognition. It was almost as if he was giving a college level socioeconomic lecture. Nobody was there, yet out he spoke. His content was quite relevant. Yet nobody was listening.

This relates back to me. I talk a lot and teach my students; at least that is what it seems like. But they do not listen to me. It is like they just humor me or tolerate my presence in the room. This makes me wonder if I will one day be the guy standing somewhere delivering some lesson about something that folks cared not to hear about.

What do you think?

To Wit, What Now?

It seems that I constantly wonder what I am doing. No matter what new endeavor I wind up on I still stop and wonder just what I am doing. So I deduce that I might as well stay at what I am doing until I move on cause the same result will happen in the next adventure. One birthday has ticked off for me and I... must stop talking about that wondering thing.

Some good stuff is that I have finally been able to move to Dallas. And I was quite fortunate enough to get a nice place in a neighborhood that I oft hang out in. Slowly I get furniture in my apartment but still it is good (as far as I know cause I do not have time to think about it). Things have been quite busy for me lately. Classes 5 days a week; I had to take a 5 hour test on Saturday.

I will keep trudging on and someday (soon actually) I will be Mr. Brittain.

More to Laugh At?

Day of all Days

Well this day was not turning out so well. I had two interviews and 130+ miles to drive just to get to the first. I, of course, did so. The first went ok, but of course I have to await a call for another interview. I was not quite on my time schedule so I did not have time, like I planned to cruise about south Dallas like I wanted. I checked into some housing and said hello to a couple of friends. I looked into again joining a mission agency. I feel that it might be advantageous to do so now as opposed to when I was actually near ready to go abroad. But, as it comes down to it, I am not sure of what to do.

One thing that I have been thinking of and noticing lately is the futility of life. I mean, that people are by large sheep, cattle, and the like. People, by large, lack the ability (intelligence is my word) to think for themselves. They think that people that think for themselves and do not adapt to standards are just plain wrong. But to see this in every piece of life seems to pull me down and I start to wonder about a lot of things. It sends me to places that I do not want to be. Life is hard enough without the overall thinking of uselessness and futility.

But to the point of how this day took a turn for the better. After the bogusness was done with, I cruised to check out a movie and hit up my favorite bar in north Dallas. Well, the theater now charges $10 so I just went to the bar. I checked in to see what they had on tap and I almost passed out. They had my favorite beer on tap!!!! I became overjoyed (in spirit anyway). I have been waiting for 5 and a half years to throw back a cold one of my favorite beer. It just became available in Texas (I know we are actually behind the times here). Soon, (I doubt it though) we may be able to get it in East Texas. At any rate, I will have to try to make it to north Dallas to get some more creamy, frothy goodness.

Another Slice of Life

A couple of funnies that I could not resist laughing at then sharing.


This is what I should start saying at job interviews.