To Exist or Not To Exist...

It has been a while since I have wondered if I exist. Many times I have done this with good reason. I am not speaking of some existential quest for meaning either. Just plain, old fashioned existing in this world that we find ourselves in. Maybe I just long for the old days. When not existing, though hard to admit, meant being neither liked or disliked.But to say I want to go back would send the wrong message. Cause afterall, I do not want to go back.